Look to the Trees

I would say last week I focused on the stars. This week I would like to focus on trees. I hope you get the chance to look up at a tree. Paying attention how the trees are reaching up to touch the sky. In the beginning when I was going through a lot during this period of transition. It helped me to think of myself as a tree. Strong, rooted, grounded, and swaying with the changes. This year I just had to have a day, yesterday, to do the same. I can do this a lot easier than before. Because, I may still have the same emotions and fears, I can sleep a good solid seven hours. This makes such a difference. And, today I will go to swim class. Where I can really let go of the anxiety I was made to feel. Yes, made to feel. No details needed, but I still am dealing with someone who does not have my best interest at heart. So, this morning I think of this ornament, and put it to work. I take a deep breath and Let it go. I write this, and then not only think up, but look up. And, realize my thinking is a big part of how I feel. And, then I move on. Some steps are all mine. But, remembering there is someone in my life who comes out of nowhere. Just to trip me. Is it fair? Do I deserve this? NO I DON'T! Fool me once, fool me twice. But, this person will NEVER fool me again. So, on to the Christmas tree, again. I love the shape is like an arrow pointing up. I also love the ornaments we put on. Some represent fond memories of places we have visited. Some have pictures of our loved ones. Some reveal our favorite childhood characters. They are placed there with love and careful attention. Filling in all the empty places the branches leave. I love facebook, because now I don't have to visit all of my friends actual houses. Facebook allows me to see all of your trees. And, they are refecting your loving light on me. Each day it seems someone else is sharing their tree. I also loved decorating my tree this year. My theme is birds and they are mostly all made of felt. My favorite is the dove representing peace and the holy spirit. And, this is my biggest wish in my life for more peace. Well, I have a doctors's appointment this week,and hoping it is a good one, too. I am thankful I am not worrying as much. Sometimes I don't share a post. This one I have to edit, but I might not. Because, I only like to look at the bright side, I try not to share my troubles. I always figure the reader has enough of thier own. But, just want to say all ended well. Best doctor appointment so far this year. Don't need to see this doctor for another three months. I had the best times dancing and laughing at my work parties. But, then ended up with an upset stomach for a couple of days. Went to a Hallmark Christmas convention, and realized I would be happier at home with my own tree. And, this is the conclusion I came to in 2023. I would not change one thing I filled in my calendar in for the month of December. But, going into 2025 I am ready to make some changes. One is very drastic. But, most of all it will give me more time. Something I thought I wanted, but then had the fear of not using it. Next year I will not have a fear of the quiet. I will make the most of it. I will dwell in it. I am sharing this from Mary Oliver this week. Because, I think it is only in the quiet we can really see things the way they are. WHEN I AM AMONG THE TREES by Mary Oliver When I am among the trees, especially the willows and the honey locust, equally the beech, the oaks and the pines, they give off such hints of gladness. I would almost say that they save me, and daily. I am so distant from the hope of myself, in which I have goodness, and discernment, and never hurry through the world but walk slowly, and bow often. Around me the trees stir in their leaves and call out, “Stay awhile.” The light flows from their branches. And they call again, “It’s simple,” they say, “and you too have come into the world to do this, to go easy, to be filled with light, and to shine.” Quote of the day:“When we have learned how to listen to trees, then the brevity and the quickness and the childlike hastiness of our thoughts achieve an incomparable joy.” - Herman Hesse Song of the day: Step Into Your Power Ray LaMontagne