Today in my stories on Instagram and Facebook I will be sharing the actual parade. I really wanted to film some good footage. And, so many of the film I took was in slow motion. I would hit the video and hold the camera to the side to see where I was walking. So, the framing is not as bad as I thought it would be. But, I had no idea it was slow motion. I kept one that is 2 and half minutes. But, pretty painful to put on social media to watch. But, I think I might start a you tube channel and place it there. It is really awesome how it features the murals along the Casino building and the slow motion of the big puppets is pretty cool. I really liked wearing the mask in the parade. One of the things I am dealing with is I don't like to get attention or the thought of people looking at me. I think the biggest struggle with this was my wedding day. How do I look happy, when this really doesn't give me a good feeling? I find now being alone magnifies these parts of my personality, which have been hidden from myself and others for years. My biggest take away of this project was putting myself in the Creator's shoes (Mural Artists, Gallery Owners and Musicians). How must they feel after this is all done. What sense of accomplishment is this giving them? I really hoped to ask these questions, but I really didn't get the chance. But, I can tell you it gave me a sense of power. It made me feel anything is possible. After I wrote my blog post yesterday, I changed my profile picture and cover photo. As, I looked at them it really changed my attitude. I got the bad news the night before that the claim I put in for my car wasn't going to come to a decision to pay for the work for at least two weeks. A lot of time was spent on the phone the whole week. I quickly put on a dress (gives me confidence) gathered all my invoices from the last year of my car, mailed three ebay orders, and twelve thinking of you greeting cards. As, I drove to the dealership I was determined to walk out of there with a working drivable vehicle. I was there for five hours. I have noticed lately when I stick up for myself, I can't do it without tears. I get so mad at myself. Anyway, I told them my story (which they already knew part of). But, I framed it a different way. I told them I was writing a book about this year and I told them it was going to be called "The Butterfly Wrestler". I said it is all about freedom. But, freedom still doesn't come easy. This is like a cinderella story and overcoming obstacles. And, Cinderella needs a carriage! So, the salesman listens to my story and asks what car would you like? And I said a Carnival. Because, life is like a Carnival and I want to live that life. But, also bring friends and family along for the ride. He told me he had chills. He said they have been trying to get that car on the lot, since it was first produced. I said I was aware of that, because when I would get my car fixed I would ask if there was one to look at. And, he said not until last week did they get the Carnival in stock. Then he remarked this is kinda crazy and I agreed. We took it out for a ride, and it drove like a Soul, but had more power. I loved my Kia Soul. It was Navy Blue with a White top and had mood lighting inside that would coordinate with the music. So, I am now on a fixed income and I want a luxury car.....this is crazy. So, now comes the finance part. I am asked what I can do? This is the part that scared me. So, I put the ball in their court and asked what they wanted from me. When he came back I could in no way do what they were asking for. I said I would have to see how much to fix the Soul or get a new one. I had given a number for the deposit and the most I could pay for a month, but he wasn't coming close, so I had to settle for a more practical car. But, then he tried again with the manager. And, he came back and said well consider this a gift. You can drive this car today for what you said plus thirty dollars more a month. He was looking down shaking his head. I was asking if he really said what he said. He said he told the manager the story and he said I was meant to drive out of the lot yesterday with a brand new Kia Carnival ( I leased it) and not a Soul. Woah!!!! I am a new person. Driving that car home yesterday made me feel like a million bucks. I have had this idea in my head for a long time. But, yesterday I made it happen. This is changing my whole outlook on the future. Sometimes real life can be really magical or dare I say enchanting. The dream I have been having is taking people on Artist Dates (they are supposed to be solo according to Julia Cameron's book). But, I would love to take couples or groups to Grounds for Sculpture, Longwood Gardens etc. Not as a business to profit from, but to help pay for the vehicle. So, this is very exciting. I was starting to feel pretty hopeless. And, this is just what I need to live the kind of life I want.
Quote of the Day:A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you’re fast asleep.
In dreams you will lose your heartaches.
Whatever you wish for, you keep.
Have faith in your dreams, and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through.
No matter how your heart is grieving,
If you keep on believing,
The dreams that you wish will come true.
Song of the Day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rl2qZvQg3Lc
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