The Butterfly Wrestler

Processing time has been the most difficult for me these last few years. I am thankful for the memories on facebook to remind me. The problem is at the same time I have been avoiding looking at my memories. Yesterday was a good day, and I took a look. I am glad I did, because it reminded me four years ago my mom was still alive. This week I want to dedicate a lot of time to her. This is a good thing, and not a sad thing. When my life took a sharp turn, a lot of decisions had to be made in a very short time. Sometimes I would wake up, and just think what would my mom do? And, I would follow through with trying to read a good book. I would go to church. I would take a ride to Atlantic City. I would call a friend. I would send a greeting card. I would just lay on the couch and watch TV. I would go to a bakery. And, all of this helped me through a really difficult time. But, many of these things cause me guilt. And, that's where I am changing my habits. And, really

At a young age I remember saying to my mom: "Time is money, but money isn't time". And, I couldn't agree with myself any more then I do now. But, now there is a pressure I feel with my time. I do consider it a gift. And, I want to spend the time as freely as possible. And, that in my life right now is without all the guilt. I am not even going to blame my guilt on my Catholic upbringing. But, deep inside it lingers, and it is right there to say: "you can't do that!". Being free is not as easy as I thought it would be. I am making the best of it, and making good decisions. Most of all not making quick decisions on how to spend my time. I try not to get any subscriptions, and forget to use them. Getting out of weight watchers taught me that lesson. But, weight watchers also helped me the most with goal setting. So, each day runs into another. I am glad I will start working soon, and have the plan of taking some time to do some fun things on

Happy Valentine's Day! I did not decorate for this day this year. In the beginning of the month I had all the supplies out to make cards. I put them away about a week ago. I ended up listing cards three weeks ago on Ebay. Not only did no one buy any, but no one viewed them either. I thought I priced them well and even offered free shipping. But, the good news is I sold one of my favorite things. My Herend Sugar and creamer. I LOVE Herend! After looking at it for so many years at Brielle Galleries. I felt so lucky to have won these in a selling contest. And, the feeling is really good, knowing someone else gets to enjoy them now. The picture is of a painting I had done a couple of years ago. I turned it into a thank you to include in the package being mailed out today. The feeling I get from doing this is helping me feel my daily paintings have more of a purpose, too. I also started another creative project I am looking forward to sharing in my social media soon, too